I never would have imagined being a first year teacher would be as hard as it has been. I'm finding out that few things turn out they way we expect them to. I have literally pulled out my hair these past month with all the issues I've had to deal with. However, I've also learned more about myself and teaching than in the past 6 months combined. The most important lesson that I've learned is to not take anything personal. I remember at the beginning of the school year I wanted everyone to like me and to be so excited to learn. I've had a major reality check lately when I finally realized that being a good teacher has absolutely nothing to do with winning "likes" from students. Next year I will approach teaching with a whole new perspective, knowing that things aren't going to go perfectly no matter how many different things I try.
At this point I have no idea where life will take me. I'm not 100% sure that I want to teach sixth grade again next year. I've applied for some special education positions and I've even thought about trying elementary school or college. At the same time I feel like I should give sixth grade another year, especially with all the resources I have now. No matter what happens I am leaning to God to show me where I'm supposed to be. I have a lot of praying to be doing!
Only 23 days left of school until Summer! Now that is some reality I can deal with.